Sometimes life takes unexpected twists and turns, and sometimes it just seem to derail for a while. In the last month I've
- been sick,
- moved from Greenville to Central,
- been on the phone with my dad when he was having a heart attack,
- come down to Alabama to help out while he recovers from triple bypass surgery (recovery is going well!),
- and seen my wife accepted to seminary (yay!),
- which means another move is in the works and I need to figure out what I'm going to do when we get there. (Not unexpected, but still...)
All of this has left me a wee bit more stressed out than normal.
I find myself tempted (and often succumbing to temptation) to just sort of zone out instead of dealing with the stress. It's all too easy to do since I'm in Alabama and apart from the community that normally holds me accountable. That's not to say I've felt completely separated from them. My friends have all been AWESOME about calling or emailing so that I know they care, and Liz came down to visit for a weekend. But I still have way too much time to kill by myself in the evenings.
When it comes down to it, I'm struggling with all the same things I would if I were in South Carolina. I wish those struggles would just end. But Liz reminded me the other day that I have to choose to fight each day. I have to choose Jesus each day. Some days it's hard... I just feel defeated. But I know that's not the reality. I may have to fight these battles, but I don't need to be a slave to them. Because of Jesus, I can have victory.
I think it helps just to proclaim that. To speak truth, even into the ether of the internet, holds some power. Now I just need to live it.
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